Other Things N Stuff

On Friday, I started to feel much better. And yesterday, I started my new drawing. This new series appeared on 1st June, when I went to PBAKL 2024. Not so big, but still, a bit smaller from A1 size. This maybe will have 2, and various of sizes gonna come along while working on this. A1 size always a challenge to me. Since 2013 where I decided to get serious with visual art, I managed to finish 2 of A1.. There was another that would be the third, but got dirty while pending on my a1 wood board.. I feel bad.. But, I rolled it already and now saved, collecting dust yet another addition to my collection.. I usually not mention what I see in my mind, what picture come out of nowhere when new illustration in making. For this series, thing clicked - when I was at the event. Meet and greet with authors, specially with those that I work together for their books. It was.. Fun.. But the inspiration? I think as recalled, more to the energy and the vibes of the people there. It all just flow.. Loud...

This morning I officially use my new sketchbook. New, as I bought it earlier this month and not use it, until this morning. Officially use it finallyyy I decided to use this for my Dark Figurative artwork, which a sketch of my expression of my feelings in the moment. This sketch I usually sketch out in size of square. And mixed with abstract (I was an abstract artist before switching to details).  I tend to have this 'too careful' even when comes to sketch out whatever I do feel like. I feel like it's my biggest challenge when come to myself as an artist, and maybe it's related to my personal daily life.. But today's sketch starts like that, but I tried to let it go and just go with whatever I feel like. With my mug of Milo, my favourite drink, using ballpen, this sketchbook finally set it purpose.

A year ago, on April , I had this thought and feeling on matter where I am as an artist, in visual art scene/field. And I think now, I'm grateful for the decision I made. While wondering should I step off from visual art scene, and carry on with my own - without realised I'm allowing myself to experience new things, new stuff out of my thing - art. On June, I decided as I'm learning to accept and letting go, that maybe visual art scene was just not my place.. I love art, and in matter of love it, I mean the process of making and the feeling that I got when working on a piece of drawing or illustration, sometimes sketching. But I just need to go along with the reality of life and my reality on my daily basis.. It was a tough decision for myself, as an artist, as myself who loves art, drawing since little.. But after almost 10 years, I just feel like, it's time. And I was so okay at the time as recall it now. The feelings that I got was, a reliefs. I felt thing just final...